Hmmm . . . Some of My thoughts

Please do not think I am a negative person and I promise I really am trying to look on the bright side of things. But right now there are a lot of things that really stink. And right now I am using this blog as a journal to record my thoughts. Something that would have been helpful right after Michelle was born.

Last night they put in the cuffed trach, an experience I would be more than happy to forget. But it is already helping her breathe so much better. They have actually turned down her ventilator pressures quite a bit and I am obviously extremely happy for such drastic signs of improvement. Hopefully she can heal now so they can continue with surgery on Monday. But I am worried that by choosing this path for better healing, we have chosen the path that will lead to a far longer hospital stay. Of course healing is the most important thing. But I really like my home better than this little tiny hospital room. But we have made our choice and now we are gearing up. Changing to a cuffed trach means a lot of adjustment on Michelle's part and a lot of training and preparation on our part as her parents.

Sigh. . .

So here I sit, next to my quietly resting princess, while missing my little buddy who is at home, hoping that the next few days, weeks, months, years will finally lead to the moments that Tory and I have been dreaming about for so long.